you had a cat that kept gettin
out
would always come home with fleas
but ugh
you bombed that house
over and over
out of love for that damned feline

I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
I dont care about your autobiography
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
I cant sleep in my bed
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
You dont love me
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement

so you try to fill it up
to avoid it
with new pants
mundane tasks
talking with friends
&
bad action movies

but it nags & gnaws

emptiness /w loss
             compounded
          /w interest

krary muzak in the drug store
it's certainly not home
& you're probably away from everyone you love
but there are still potato chips and beer
there is still free streaming TV
and michael westen to keep you company
writing like jenny holzer or ben austin
is
impossible
but there's still beer there's still beer

fish out of water

it’s always twisting and flopping 
a near dead fish
can breath inside my heart
…but
i think he is finally working his way out

isp memory hook

a memory too good
& google access
she stared at the picture for a good 20 minutes
adjusted the calibration behind her eyelids
it was still there
in a thousand pixels
on a high refresh rate

access to any
name
connections never severed
2013
internet persona on repeat
a skipping hd disc platter

mystery isp
narcissistic stats
looking for...the one...that got away
b/c of love
b/c of love
b/c of lies of love

don't think i forgot all the terrible things you did bb
i just forgave you for em
held them in my elephant heart
heavy heavy
yer a repeat offender
and i should just give it up
give up your ghost
to haunt another

bb im yer beast
you been everything but merciful
bb im yer beast
you been everything but kind
bb im yer beast
and yer still on my mind