'neath the weight of black mass

back alley url
get out yer hang (her)
steroid // sociopath // ego
crusssssssssssssssssssshing
'neath the weight
of black mass

revelations revel // ignorance
"why can't i get any (dis) respect?"
you get what you give
cliche apparati
never learned tongues
i bow you bow we all say bow wow

monochrome injustices
spreading bee pollen butter
fungal (in)in(fect)communicado
staccato // wall sconces

paranoia princess
slumped asthmatic rhythms
chronic // depression // shortcircuits
crussssssssssssssssssssssssssssssshing
'neath the weight
of black mass

4.28.13

she announced at the beginning of her creative writing class:
she was//is a marxist

no human being was more special than any other
no human being was different from any other
but then she gave some kids a C and some kids an A
nullifying her own argument

our basic needs are the same if that s what you mean ma m
food // health // shelter (gimme shelter) // love


and...


i m sitting
somewhere between ayn rand and karl marx
but it s an uncomfortable swiss made modernist chair
A: "is it the only chair we have in this gallery?"
B: "yes"
A: "shit..."

broke down systems
denim blue collar workers
how did jeans get so expensive?

she tugs on me
she tugs on me

A: "you re great"
B: "i m just average"
A: "you can be whatever you want"

telephone game:
oscar wilde whispers in my ear from beyond death
i got a paper cup tied to a string
he s saying something about decadence and walmart
but i can t quite make it out
fitzgerald chimes in and...
i say: babes we been here so many times
nitzsche is talking about eternal return and pinky twirls his mustache
ayn rand rolls her eyes... happiness is something you can buy
oppen just sits in the corner with william carlos williams
both blankly staring, refusing to play the game

A: "i love you"
B: "prove it"
A: "i can t"

intangible love lines
connected invisible blue strings
connected by data blood banks
mood dependent swing votes

people are all different and the same at once suddenly says oppen
and then i pass out

control

quick fix
it didn't hold up
in court
ppl are angry
ppl should be
misdirected house and senate bill a busters

"it's the chicago problem"
"it's the philly  problem"
"it's the oakland problem"

and you think...it's a human problem

but...when it happens in ct that's where we draw the line

controlled arms
from mental harm
long law arm
neo barbarians put on the best shows
quick get out yer popcorn
annie get out yer gun
the race to the quick fix has begun
they knew they wouldn't win
rigged/fixed/quick/fix/trix

deep deeper deepest
"money it's a crime"
kids knee deep
ignorant bliss
black & blue finger kiss

back up big gov you killed mlkjr and hundred of thousands of thousands of thousands (can i buy a 0; oh a vowel; sorry wrong game)

it's no slippery slope
it's a rope a dope dope

her stomach is a ball tightly wound into nothing; she holds a hand out...
neo barbarians walk past; pass control; pass go;
collect rent from board walk and mediterranean; don't forget the rail roads;
get out of jail free cards and yer a winner

mama i got the quick fix blues
& they is riding down my spine into my empty stomach
cough syrup symptoms of root issues

elitist BS (formatting in image files again and google docs and this is a draft) ok

items in the works

item A: derivative species
she rolled her eyes back into the pink
"his music...is derivative"
no response from the peanut gallery
b/c it was in a facebook chat
and who has the time for that

...but bby we're a derivative species
there was someone doing it before you
we were all doing it before you
everything that has ever been tapped
...was tapped from humanity's existence

see: the water cycle; evaporation, condensation, precipitation, infiltration, runoff
human rivers; human oceans; derivative species
see: eternal return; amor fati; Kalachakra; Nietzsche

there's something beautiful about the beach and a grain of sand
you can ask oppen about that one


derivative///redundant elitism
bby we have crossed eons of time to be here
right now
to create
to breath
you do you i do me he do him and she do her
puh leez gurl puh leez




item B: neo barbarians; a drunk perspective
i get more google hits from neo barbarians than anything
well they're out there
and they're racist, homophobic, and wealthy

stop beatin on the system
stop beating up the system

stop...

im drunk again
and that coinage/paper controls
nam sayin
dig

item C: null
fuck your ennui
fuck your apathy
fuck your misogyny
fuck your misandry
fuck your capitalism
fuck your communism
fuck your war
fuck your peace

item D: the queen of dissolute dreams
it's the worst at night
when you try to connect the dots
{the why}
reality will never give it up, it became a pro at hiding truths and reasons after working for the US gov
be careful
or paranoia will run its course, straight through your veins; shot between the toes to avoid detection

there are fictions the mind creates
when it is racing at night
brass tax; it was his decision
despite what he may/may not have been told

fiction:
a stubborn milky woman sits inside the red den fat with animus
smokes lies like   a chimney
smokes lies into   his eyes
sits between two men in order to remain idle
they rub her milky bulbous feet and calves with divine loyalty////////out of love/fear
here/ far away/ below HER/ sits another woman
whose desire to be wanted can never be quenched\\\\\\\\\\whose self motivated needs outrun friendships
in fact there are 4 men and 2 women and THE woman

{after math}

he tells her words these words:
i like yer poem //baby
i miss you      //baby
i luv u4eva     //baby
before the massive palisade of silence was erected

it took him 3 days to build it out of match sticks: see fiction; see subterranean truths

thousands of miles apart
and people wanna tell them what love is
people wanna help her out with the trite spit:
you'll find someone better

...and don't you get it?
i don't sleep either fucker.

item E: internetz

so i wasn't hip
to alt lit
until about 20 minutes too late
and i get that literary pretense is just that
but i read/read a lot
i can't help being an information sponge
and it's all applicable really
from oscar wilde to william gibson
from oceans of sound and glass windows
slow erosion
a movement

i can listen to talking heads live from rome
as much as i like
i can't help playing a bit of a trick
i don't want to be mean
but none of you ever reblog my posts (alt lit press/meta knight etc)
and hitting the like button
is a nice gesture
but it doesn't bode well with me
you can hit that heart all you like

it don't mean you like
anything

i am coding html in notepad b/c tumblr made their interface an annoyance and so did microsoft

i'll tell you a story but you have to come close; it's a whisper, it's a shallow pond

when i was in 2nd grade mrs.funk showed me a haiku
and i was in love
i was in love with words
i got advanced placement
in math too
but numbers were always just clashing symbols and words were a symphonic arrangement
when i was a girlscout i always held the flag too long

i dont want to free write too much
but at least my writing is free
i hope i remembered to keep my old printed transcripts b/c my hard drives keep dying

the internet is ephemeral and when it crashes we will be crushed

item F: blasphemy

the easter bunny

hid the eggs but you colored them

...read the new testament

jesus didn't write it; his buddies did

and we all know how some friends can be

jesus was an aries; the ram

(i never got down with any personally

but there's still time

cuz i said goodbye to gemeni, taurus, sagitarius, capricorn, virgo, and leo)

hello pices

hello aries; hello jesus

i always thought jesus had great abs

but he's not the first guy to get crucified

and his story isn't unique

bill mahr will tell you that

haha

why am i writing this response

i was raised christian and i called bullshit pretty early on

our favorite game was stump the sunday school teacher

asking questions about gays and abortion

if god has a plan, what is it exactly? can i make installment payments? is there interest? compounded? or is it more like a 401k?

monotheism: one day "god" gets upset b/c none of the other gods wanna hang, but that's b/c he's kind of dick and kind of mean and well you get it

so he comes down to the earth, and meets up with moses, he keeps doing this every time the other gods are like

"god, would you at least be chill?

but god isn't a chill god

god's kind of like a teen boy that has a rape fantasy

god comes down again and says hey mary let's get it on, only thing is she's sleeping

but jesus was a nice guy, it's not his fault his dad is a dick

god came down a bit later and talked to muhammad (god likes the middle east for some reason he never made it over to india (shiva wasn't down with god))

god thought: well third time's the charm

and maybe god was right