stop looking @ nothing

i am nothing
i am nothing
i am nothing
i am nothing

i always told you i was nothing

we are nothing now fer sure fer sure

and those people are gone
and those people are gone
and those people are gone

the past does this
it rolls out behind

i know im…repeating myself
but im stepping into the future with you, now, now, now
happy new year
it’s the 2nd and im stoned and i am afraid to go back
but i am afraid to stay here

i am nothing
i am nothing
i am nothing
i am nothing

i always told you i was nothing

we are nothing now fer sure fer sure

everything has been stirred
whipped back
foamy froth memories in cool gray air, in cool gray landscapes
i think i cant breath
i think i am having another anxiety attack

i am nothing
i am nothing
i am nothing
i am nothing

i always told you i was nothing

we are nothing now fer sure

mandy

my love expands out from me
& just as quickly recedes

my love is misunderstood
           misinterpreted
                        (to be exclusive)



dont be so selfish with my love

                                 i would like to touch your tangle of gold
                               i would like to smooth away the tightness in your temples
                                   i would like to do...w/e you wanted w/e yer into

i am muddled i am lost
i am so
       small

it's taking longer than i thought, but ill get there, well get there

absurdity

the new frontier of relationships
is is
meeting you at a party
we have mutual friends
                      on facebook
pull out gorilla glass mounted on plastic
did you did you
send the request?
oh i found you, yer friends with _________
ok ok

& later...

insomnia drives detective scouring over all the pictures
                                         all the exes(?)
is this is this...you
is this is this...digital thing...you

& later...

you might mention a fact from the fact gathering mission
you might let it slip
that you know...nothing

incarceration

an emptiness // a lacking // the absence of substance // null
                                   「　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　」　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　
you can count all the things you have the list rolls out before you on dead paper // an incomplete archive its so　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　
                                                                                                                

                                                                                                                  long
people remind you to mark a plus where it counts; but; but; but;

an emptiness // a lacking // the absence of substance // null
                                   「　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　」　　
you can reach back into the past the list rolls out before you on dead paper // an incomplete archive its so　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　


                                                                                                                  long



people remind you what to do, to do, to survive; but; but; but;

an emptiness // a lacking // the absence of substance // null
                                   「　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　」　


& we are all racing, einstein said something about the imagination being limitless, but so is the void

North Korea

can we do something about north korea
novelty t shirts aside
novelty genocides aside
can we do something about north korea?

you tried to make a period peice about the mid 90s
financial backers backed out
like a decade unfinished

what do you call the decades between 00 and 20?
is life less interesting when utilizing rare earth?

imagine me as a hybrid bing crosby and a burgess alex
rolling my hat down my arm
...eternally winking

dear Obama

while you were busy tapping fiber networks // hacking encryption data
& swearing overseas only
there were children being murdered in philadelphia

while you were busy spending money // to tap communications networks
& fund drone strikes
there were children being murdered in chicago

{murdered//starving//uneducated//cycle.cycle.cycle}

while you were busy shaking the hands of plutocrats // tapping the phone of another
& keeping tabs on terrorism
there were united states citizens starving

while you were busy with infighting in the house // to slowly erode the constitution
& maintaining a positive out look
there were united states citizens working homeless

{murdered//starving//uneducated//cycle.cycle.cycle}


{you wanna soft shoe, you wanna velvet tongue, but you tap dancing like a madman and we all got a head ache}

it wouldnt be so bad
if i didnt feel displaced
the astral plane puts me
in a different geography // reality
it wouldnt be so bad
if i wasnt in your arms
in my sleep
every night

slight of hand

the greatest trick
we ever played
was convincing the world

we were happy
while she shut down for business

we came out in pixels & streams
of data digital & happy

we got off on a veneer // sheen of blankness

the greatest slight of hand
a slip of smile
sublime shallow waters
perfect forum format
it’s all in the wrist

you said you wanted to eat my loneliness
so i asked you what it tasted like
licking lips & patting them with a napkin
you feigned thought
but without thinking
you said
"it tastes like it tastes like stardust, it tastes like a million years of evolution, it tastes like blood"
did it satisfy you, to eat my loneliness?
"no dear, it was supposed to satisfy you"

you can love a ghost
from thousands of miles
                      ...away

absence of physical presence
doesn't negate your
                     ...love

maybe the ghost can feel
the pulse of your love
from thousands of miles
                      ...away

I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
I dont care about your autobiography
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
I cant sleep in my bed
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
You dont love me
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement
I decided to lay on the pavement

I am going to pay more attention to this blog soon. I promise.